No 'non-sense'

We are defined by our own thoughts. Is it so?? It’s just the desire in our thought that gives an impact on our behaviour. The harder the impact of thought in/on ones brain the nearer we get to oneself.

How could this whole thing work out??

Well, we have a space for belief system in our cerebral brain. The ambiguous question is, is it the combination of thoughts that makes a belief system or is it the belief system that procures these thoughts. How can one control and play with them??

I failed to figure out myself..!!!!

The one who needs his path to experience a palindrome shift between two extremes needs to be clarified..!!! When one wants to get oneself under control, when one is ready to give away, when one doesnt easily get affected from external aspects, when one is ready to accept everything..!!! We can map all these instincts to a ‘phase’ when mortal life reaches almost to an end.. !!

I feel that, belief system follows the process of adaption or a mere inheritance. This process of adaption may be from the society, elders, family. It resides not only in our brain but also our heart. So whenever we make a decision irrespective of logical and emotional part, i.e., we use either or brain or heart or sometimes both even though they travel in opposite directions (almost in my case) while making decisions, this belief system is gonna affect it blindly.

Thoughts are something diversified, but our thoughts are bind by our belief system. The boundary of the thought is coated by this belief system either consciously or unconsciously. In any way it is playing a integral part.

Now the critical part: Is it possible to get rid of the umbilical cord between belief system and thoughts??

Infact, is it gonna make a difference if they are bound to each other. Yes, sure it does make a difference. Thought interprets as something which is boundless, and must be free to explore any extreme. If it is bind by our own belief system we are simply not allowing our ideas to follow its heart.

A controversial aspect, if a thought crosses its belief system barrier, then its physical being life is miserable. It pushes one to cross one’s own boundaries and allow doing something different which intern turns to be either great or a miserable twig. Either one is meant to be done without standing a chance. One must have real guts to do that.

A Harvard psychology Graduate says that “Our behaviour is defined by our own thoughts. If you can’t make it, just fake it. Fake it till you make it, fake it till you believe and behave it. It will be done not by external miracles, but from your own thoughts itself. The deeper the intensity, the better the outcome will be..!!”.

I was wondering what will be the limits while faking our behaviour. What boundaries will be set for that??  Forget about the outcomes. But, does our belief system have any part to play in this scenario??

My logical sense stopped working there itself, my emotional intelligence is saying that enough of your illogical senses and just shut the random things you are writing and post this in that stupid blog of yours...!!!

Err..!! a brief "about me" i guess...!!!

1. Last beverage- pulpy orange

2. Last phone call – Didi(Inquiring me whether I am dead or alive)

3. Last text message- Some unknown number(still tryin 2 figure out)

4. Last song you listened to- Lazy lad(Ganchakar)

5. Last time you boozed- in my 2nd year graduation i guess..!!

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:

1. Dated someone - yes, in Indian style

2. Been cheated on?- No personal experience with that. But I get how dumb it makes one feel.

3. Kissed someone & regretted it?- Nope.

4. Missing someone special?-hell yea..!! my b.tech faculty..!! kaams mam..miss yu..

5. Been depressed?- hell..!! ya. mostly

6. Been drunk and threw up? – Not reachd till ther..!!

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:

1. white

2. Black.

HAVE YOU:

1. Made new friends - Yeahhh! I'm not impressive in tat.. but ya .. some

2. Fallen out of love- ya..!! wid my latest blog too..!!

3. Laughed until you cried- Yeah. During one nyt, after retrieving some pretty memories

4. Met someone who changed you- Yeah. I dunno what exactly but I can feel the difference.

5. Found out who your true friends were- Yeah I did! BOOKS, INTERNET

6. Found out someone was talking about you- Oh.!! no .. m nt a celebrity type... 

7. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list- Nope.

8. Been to a long drive- ya.. in my childhood.. 4 bicycles,, 10 km. 3 hrs..!!

9. Been into a serious fight- Ya.. hardly thrice i guess..!!

10. Do you have any pets- two fishes..!! small ones.!!

11. Do you want to change your name- Never.

12. What did you do for your last birthday- since 3 years, i m starving for contention(dunno why..??!!)

13. What time did you wake up today- Around 11(weird though..!!)

14. What were you doing at midnight last night- texting .. fb, watsapp.. wat not.. n reading some blogs..!!

15. Name something you CANNOT wait for- for now..!! my frnd b.dy..!

16.What is one thing you wish you could change about your life- I wish I had better decision making

17. What are you listening to right now- tholi prema- emaindho ee vela

18. Most visited webpage- Google, facebook, way2sms,youtube

1. What's your name- sandeep 

2. Nicknames- Deepu, sandy

3. Relationship Status- ( I may complain about it. I may curse or cry about it but..) I m happy Single soul.

4. Zodiac sign- Aries

5. Male or female or transgendered- male

6. Describe yourself in five words- Rational, adorable, Humorous, Weird, and Transparent

7. Talents you wish you had- I wish I could flirt efficiently

8. Most important interests- Books over people(printed are somthn eternal) , Writing, Admiring

9. Height-5’10.

10. Circumference-Medium

11. If you could anywhere right this second where'd you go- Goa, venice

12. Do you have a crush on someone?- Crush ..!! ha ha..!! 1 mb data is needed..!!

13: What do you like about yourself?-  valuing others:mostly gals(literally more than myself...) don’t curse..!!

14. Glasses- Ha ha..loved thm.. I do.!!!

15. Tattoos- No, but thinking of getting some (still in the process of thoughts)

16. Righty or lefty- Righty...!!!

FIRSTS :

17. First surgery- Nope :/

18. First accident- Hadn’t crossed the tablet till now.

19. First best friends- Bannu and the rest followed ;)

20. First sport you joined- Shuttle

21. First pet- None.

22. First long vacation-.sarnath I was 7 years old.

23. First concert- none..

24. First crush-Akhila(wen i m in 12th std.. )(if yu r seeing ths forgive me..!!)

RIGHT NOW:

25. Eating- Sweet.

26. Drinking- Thumsup.

27. I'm about to- surf net.

28. Listening to- Bob marley – Rat race.

29. Waiting for- Tomorrow..2 eat chicken biryani..2da is satrday though.. !!yummyy

YOUR FUTURE :

30. Fav car? Ferrari.

31. Want to roam whole world? YES. Who else.!!

32. Careers in mind? Management field

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

33. Lips or eyes- Lips

34. Hugs or kisses- Hugs.

35. Shorter or taller- shorter than me!!!bt not too short..

36. Older or Younger- Older r younger.. nt a big deal to me

37. Romantic or spontaneous- spontaneously romantic

38. Lean r few pound extra - Err..I m lil attracted to bubbly ones

39. Sensitive or loud- Loud, as m sensitive

40. Hook-up or relationship- Relationship.

41. Trouble maker or hesitant- Trouble maker. Lol..

HAVE YOU EVER :

42. Kissed a stranger- No..!! but crazy experience one gets r8.??!! Pchhh..!!

43. Lost glasses/contacts- “your eyes n glasses are bonded forever”.my mom used to say ths

44. Sex on first date- Errr..!! no date

45. Broken someone's heart- Yeah ,people say m good at tat..!! i don really know..!!

46. Had your own heart broken- OH YESS! Lotta tyms

47. Been arrested- Nope. Whats my frnds for?

48. Turned someone down- Yeah(still no regrets).

49. Cried when someone died- Yep.. recently my frnds father..!!

50. Liked a friend that is a boy?- yes,.. i m definite no gay kind..!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

51. Yourself- no, tats the biggest mistake i ever regret

52. Miracles- Yeah I do. But, they never happen to me.

53. Love at first sight- if it is fr the first tym then its lust..!bt still . ya .. i believ it.

54. Heaven- Let me enjy here first

55. God- Athiest..!!!:P

56. Kiss on the first date?- ya.. in movies..!

57.Karma-i m nt afraid to say tat i strongly believe it.!!
58. Culture- no comments..:P

59. Humans- difficult though.!! but who else we live wid..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

60. Is there one person you want to be with right now? – Yes..My self

61. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? – Frgt abt plural.. No singular till now..!!
62. Have yu ever lied?- Hell lotta tymss..!! who else..

62. Posting these as Truths?- YOU read them.

P.S. I'm still thinking how the owner of these qstns(i modified some) will react after seeing my post..!!

Confusion:Our DNA

            I have seen in a mov­­­­­ie, where a doctor confesses to the protagonist in a movie with an inclusion of little sarcasm in his statement. The protagonist who is helping the doctor to meet his task will go off the track for some time, and then the doctor in a sense of frustration, anger, disappointment, pity along with little maturity calls him as a “confused sperm”

I personally feel no human sperm can be excluded without this tag on it. Yes, we are the most confused living being available in our human known universe, and the hilarious fact is ‘it’ can’t accept the fact that it is a confused kind. We, the confused kind seem to face this confusion right from our mere existence of maturity, let us excuse the first 15 years(pity, this number is decreasing gradually) of every individual. Those are the only moments which are far away from duties, burden, responsibilities and  a hard criticism from our society which lets us to get a pointed finger for whatever we do, no matter how cruel and how moral it is. The only target of society is to let the individual feel that he is doing something which is against to human race. We have hundreds of heads out there supporting those non-existing principles of society whom themselves feels as a messengers between the society and people by forgetting the facts that the society itself are those people.

Meanwhile, take our own acquaintance who will be the first to show down a hallow path to us and forces us take it by creating an illusion that no other path is ready to accept ‘us’. In the due process, somewhere in the brain, a hormone triggers us to take a chance for ‘change’. Indeed a good start.  Yes, change is the best inevitable thing ever existed, but the path of change is uncertain. We humans can’t reside to a certain thing for certain amount of time. A mere doubt evolves again in that little brain of this poor being “whether this decision of ‘change’ makes sense or not”. All of the sudden, this acquaintance again appear and will try to convince that, we are stupid; the decision which we have taken is also stupid. It will let all these stupid things of ours in the weakest moment of our life which is again objective. This leads to the feeling of incompetence which is the primary reason for the lack of contentment in every individual.

I dunno how all these uncertainties (blahh.!!) rules our human life. But I personally take ‘it’ as our birth right. Being a homo-sapiens, we are equipped with certain unspoken privileges which reside in every cell of our body and we can use them without a fear of getting caught to society.

Now the question is not about the path or how we use it but, here some of the heads are more concerned about the existence of this confusion. It is provided that confusion exists in every part of our human body, and some fails to balance it. This group failed to keep the whole system stable by using ‘not so important’ ability everywhere (‘which is not appreciable’) which makes the situation even worse.

Coming to this movie,

After going through extreme outcomes from his doings he will learn and attain a state where his problems will be solved by understanding and accepting the reality of life. I can’t say how he overcomes his confusion (!!!!Even though that is only the concerned part over here). In this movie he hadn’t removed his confusion; indeed one can’t eradicate it simply. It’s not something which is humanly possible. However, he overcame it by using common sense which is implicitly required...!!!!

P.S: Told you human brain is a confused kind..!! this post is the best example I guess..!!!

        Don’t worry; you have 6 billion people accompanying you in this fact..!!!

Does it matter ??

I dunno what kind of ideas resides in ones brain. If something unexpected (in worst case scenario) expected too, happens, one will freak out feeling like they have encountered some alien invasion in our earth.

Keeps on bothering that the whole thing one believed is a fucked up shit, feels like jumping from a top of cliff without a parachute. Weeping for the whole life like a child who has missed his/her way back from school, throwing tantrums on every living being possible. Sniffing for the clues and cursing any second person who interferes with this volcanic mind at that instant.

Let me come to the basic point, how one feels the existence of relation or what things prove the existence of relation. Is it the daily calls, whats app texts, timing texts of letting them know the common existence of sun and its revolutions?

I dunno man..!!!! I don’t offend the people who believe that the above doings only shows the existence of relation but I feel like

  “What a sarcastic thought??”

Do we really need that?? Heartily, not always...!!!

Then what we ‘expect’ heartily..?? ..!!! Yeah.. Yeah..!!! ‘Expectation’...!!!!.Now I became conscious about what I am trying to put up.. “Expectation”. Again what type of expectation, at what time and how long this expectation is to be expected?

Expectation is somehow relates to give and take policy. “Hey buddy, we are not talking about business here to include policies”

I guess business is lot better, at least it follow some specific trends even though some are not ethically accepted.

Again, relation is something divine, immaterialist, eternal, and unworldly.

“Oh..!!! damn.. enough” .. don’t freak out with those impeccable chants.

It’s an illusion and a blind belief formed by relating something to belief, faith which are so powerful so that no one questions out and also no one peeps out if the boundary line (which is restricted to mortals- as theists says) 

Business is lot better. There a cheat will be called as cheat irrespective of the emotion. But in this world of illusions, world of divine relations no one can imagine how far it goes and in which direction it ends. Some are bind by the thoughts of rituals, culture and traditions (forgot about the part of some sense and little nonsense in it), but we fear the most, we are bound by some narrow thoughts and are tied to a rigid walls of our belief system.

But what bothers me is that, until when this whole scenario continues even after the age of maturity, even after having a responsible family of wife, kids and a society tagging with us, even after the time where you are close to leave your life out of you(as they say).

Where am I???!!!!... Yeah..!! yeah.. Expectation..!! Which is the first step for disappointment, what if it mixes with hope: trust me; it will be the dangerous thing which makes a person impractical, unrealistic and pushes them to the world of dissatisfaction. It makes a man insane.

A controversial thought, hope is the best thing which ever existed, a major source of existence of every good and bad. If this ‘hope’ is not there everything will be shattered and will turn into ashes.

  

Again, what do we expect and how long we expect?

As a human being, and a south Indian, we expect nothing but little time towards us, it may be the care, concern, anger, frustration. We just expect little time to share from his/her schedule. That’s all we want sorry, we expect.

How long:

A hypothetical thesis, it completely depends on person, if one is too stubborn, having tons of patience, trust, in the least concern “need”, then time doesn’t count. It describes and resides in every level of relation.

Theoretically, we are considering ‘need’ as the least concerned element, but practically that is the only thing which is powerful.

 Need: It is a diversified search, business, emotional, physical, and mental. Every person and other will adjust in one of the above criterion to sustain in a long term or a life-long relation (again illusion), at least one will try to keep it eternal.

Does it really matter to analyse the above shit..!!!!!

Yes, you know why? This shit smells good and describe who we really are, and what we are meant to be.....!!!!!!!!!

P.S: Please forgive but consider my immaturity in my ideas.

P.S: Also don’t relate to any but correlate to yourself.

P.S: If you don’t give a shit about above, don’t worry, include me in that list.

P.S: Just for my satisfaction to reach my expectation. I am not sure how much part is true. If it is ideally zero. Don’t worry I am not messing with you.

Slavery- Modern format of corporate life.

Someone once said: slavery works better if we don’t mention it.

Our corporate society was smart enough to pick up that catch and we are busy innocent enough to not notice the perfect sense: A big applause to the democracy and socialism.

Forget about what is happening around the globe; let us stick to our beloved nation India.

I agree the fact that democracy and socialism plays a major part ­­in the society and to help people make comfortable living with society. What will happen if the comfort becomes necessity, needs substituted with demands and conditional becomes unconditional? The whole cycle changes giving rise to a certain loops which are inevitable like a closed maze. One tries to figure out by moving inside the loop knowingly or unknowingly by not willing to accept the real fact and living in an Illusion that it comforts us.

We are sustaining in this world by getting paid for what our master (corporate hierarchy superior) commands us in the formal name of ‘work responsibility’ (following institutional ethics or the vision of the company which we are working like a lame ass) which obviously doesn’t differ much from the western slavery.

The only difference is no one will point us out with the name of ‘slave’ but simply we wear a tag of slave which is camouflaged. This way of perception will comfort ourselves with the sense of confidence and can produce better outcome with this esteemed confidence of ours and encourages our superior to bait us more for his overall personal profit. Wherever we go and anywhere you take the whole theme is same with the difference in operating levels: Slavery.

Some poor fellas found the myth behind this whole reality show of ours and tried to correct it but left in vain. In other sense they tried to correct society but left in resetting themselves. Hilarious though, but still it is the fact.

They did change themselves but remained far to the society with name of nerds, traditional and pals who are fear of accepting change.

This society is not at all pity towards them, but afraid of them, afraid of the outcomes if the whole nest got open up with the help of the same nerdy group, traditional bunch who were abandoned by so called society of educated , intelligent, wisdom, knowledge accustomed people referred as corporate society.

The path of fear is absolutely valuable as we are already in the socialized state and the smallest change in the system will create lot of disturbances and we are not ready to welcome those disturbances.

In a controversial thought or in a lateral idea is that, what if this stabilized is the only source of our entire existence for our living and in worst case for mere existence.

Then the difference between machine and man will be nullified according to Einstein.

A small chat with a 5 decade bank employee..

Caution: Little patience required...!!!!

One day I went to a bank to deposit amount into my friends account, I took a slip and filled it after a hard research of banking terminology and was wandering inside with an ambiguity of where to go as there are few customers or no waiting lanes for cash deposits or withdrawals as it is closing time where sun is ready to kiss the land.

I went straight into a cabin with 3 closed sides besides to the other clone with some common banking stuff on them. Both the cabins are empty and I am waiting with anguish as no one showed up even in the private sector backs which are well known for their customer services.

A person in middle 50’s with height resembles to the south Indian with an incremental circumference around his waist when compared to normal one, a round brown coloured frames for his thick glasses, neatly tucked in his shirt walking slowly with a compassion on his faces showed up. Sat in his chair comfortably and asked in a tendered tone “what do I want?”All my previous thoughts evaporated with that question and substituted with the thought of “ohh!!! Yeah I wanna rob this bloody bank and I need your permission to do that” .I compressed all my bewildered ideas with a smile and showed the slip which I have filled earlier. After checking the slip he explained me some technical terms for the reason of not accepting the online deposits at that late time. After seeing his explanation, I grabbed a confidence that my work will be done but I have to acquire little patience to listen to whatever he says.

He asked me what I am doing, I replied with a sense of concern that I am doing my final year B.Tech. He asked me whether I am computer science student. I nodded my head with a no and told him I am an ECE student. He raised an unexpected way of question; will you get a job with your degree certificate after the completion of your degree?

With a tone of hesitation I said ‘Yes, I will get jobs but mostly not in the field which I have studied all these 4 years ’

“Forget about stream, In general will you get a job”?

Then I came to my senses about a job letter of mine from a company which I already have, and told him the same.

After a 15 min conversation I have seen a wide smile on his face and he heartily congratulated me. Literally I was surprised because no one have done that to me I mean not with that intention and happiness even my parents.

After a couple of seconds astonishment  I told him that the company I have placed is a software company which is completely out of my ECE domain and gave him a hint that I am interested in further studies. Then he inquired about the salary package, I told him and again triggered about my idea of pursuing higher studies.

He asked me whether I am interested in his suggestion, I replied with an emphatic Yahh.!!!.

“In this present scenario, if you have placed in any company; be it a software, core, marketing, forget about the package they are offering you, Please take that with golden hand, never ever abandon the job in this market situation”

He added his opinion that, “in the coming decade, youth is the driving power of nation. The white and golden coloured hair people time has gone to the extinct line, You are the demanded people in any sector, just imagine the competition, if the industry is ready to provide equivalent opportunities to you then India will definitely shine like sun.

What if the resources and needs don’t compensate the youth number? With that question, I was dumb struck for a moment, he then clarified me that “the revolution will start with rebellions formed my youth who are educated striving not for freedom, not for democracy of country, not for the justice, not for religious or constitutional issues but for mere ‘existence’.”

(He added some political things here which I have skipped.)

He waved a goodbye to me with a satisfied smile like an innocent child who got what she wants after a 15 min pampering.

As a matter of fact, I was literally shocked while retiring to the parking area and the realization started like a slow poison.

I thought India is going to experience changes due to the youth driving force but not in this direction of the evolution of revolts for survival. Till now we have been invading ourselves with an idea of what to do? What to change? How to do? How to change? How to evolve? All these self questing without the thought of second person i.e., without the primary idea of competition.

Now the thought provoked. How to compete with the mega driving force? Where we will stand in the middle of rebellion or against them or a simple visitor in this whole act? What we have to do in order to choose any of above scenarios? In a general sense what is the form or stream of employment we choose in order to avoid any offensive outcomes is still a question to me.

P.S: Just a personal opinion.